Let God handle it.
Psalm 32:8
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will consul you and watch over you.
Turn it over to God.
Thursday, November 30, 2017
Monday, November 27, 2017
A Genuine Turning To God
Jonah 3:10
When God saw what they did and how they turned from their evil ways, he had compassion and did not bring upon them the destruction he had threatened.
God's companion is absolutely wonderful. When we are in need of love and mercy, God sees our obedience and gives us compassion. Pray, repent and love. I'm going to begin a fast. I'm working two jobs that are hardly paying me half the salary I was making. My family says I'm more relaxed and calmer than I was when I was working at CPS. I know that the long rides each way are not missed. My crazy principal, students and the constant craziness is not missed either. I'm going to work on my Phd now. I found an online course at Springfield, University of Illinois. I'm definitely encouraged that I can destress my life. money is not everything, especially when it leaves you overworked and stressed. My priorities are different but more focused. God's presence is something I will continue to seek in every decision of my day, hour, minute. I constantly ask for forgiveness because I know I don't do everything I am suppose to do, but I pray for constant support and help. I pray that the Lord hears the prayers of his people. Without faith, without hope, what are we? Where would we be? I know there is more for me and I am expecting the best. As long as I am still here, there's more for me than this. Keep me close, keep me encouraged and remember that I love you Lord. I can't do it without you. I need you every day. You are my comforter. I think of you daily and I will continue to focus on your promises. You will not disappoint me. Whether you save me or not, I know you love me and can do whatever you choose. Thank You for your blessings and love.
When God saw what they did and how they turned from their evil ways, he had compassion and did not bring upon them the destruction he had threatened.
God's companion is absolutely wonderful. When we are in need of love and mercy, God sees our obedience and gives us compassion. Pray, repent and love. I'm going to begin a fast. I'm working two jobs that are hardly paying me half the salary I was making. My family says I'm more relaxed and calmer than I was when I was working at CPS. I know that the long rides each way are not missed. My crazy principal, students and the constant craziness is not missed either. I'm going to work on my Phd now. I found an online course at Springfield, University of Illinois. I'm definitely encouraged that I can destress my life. money is not everything, especially when it leaves you overworked and stressed. My priorities are different but more focused. God's presence is something I will continue to seek in every decision of my day, hour, minute. I constantly ask for forgiveness because I know I don't do everything I am suppose to do, but I pray for constant support and help. I pray that the Lord hears the prayers of his people. Without faith, without hope, what are we? Where would we be? I know there is more for me and I am expecting the best. As long as I am still here, there's more for me than this. Keep me close, keep me encouraged and remember that I love you Lord. I can't do it without you. I need you every day. You are my comforter. I think of you daily and I will continue to focus on your promises. You will not disappoint me. Whether you save me or not, I know you love me and can do whatever you choose. Thank You for your blessings and love.
Monday, November 13, 2017
That Crazy Woman
Luke 2:19
A Child of Hope
But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.
Lord, we are always wondering about things that happen.
When I sought a counselor about my life and what I thought was a possible relationship in my life, I was told to confront him with questions.
When I tried in my most inept way, I was told I was mistaken.
So was I imagining this or was I just being made fun of at the time.
Was it a joke? Did I make this up in my mind? What real proof do I have.
No words have been actually said to me to make me believe that this is truth that I should believe. All of this is intuition and inference.
So I pull back, stop doing what I had been doing, just writing my thoughts and feelings and then remove myself from a hurtful situation. Then I feel as if I am being stubborn and foolish.
If its all in my head, then I need to clear my head. I have taken things way out of context.
But yet, there seems to be something.
Something spiritual. Something to believe in. Something to say, no matter what it looks like, there is some reality to this situation. But is this really mutual or just me wanting it to be more than it is.
Nothing is said directly to you. Nothing is said to me to make me believe differently.
Nothing is done directly to you, but still, there is something there. So, I'm waiting. Waiting, Waiting, Waiting. Waiting for clarity. Waiting on the Lord. Waiting for evidence. I'm working near home. My finances are depleted. I work and still don't have enough. I'm focusing my mind on something else. Hope. Hope for my future. Hope to meet my needs and my bills. I rely on God, I keep my mind focused on God being with me and traveling this new journey together. If its really real, then God will find a way to make it happen. I will just keep trying to make my bills and focus on the present reality. I'm working weekends and evenings for the holidays. I'm going to church with my mom locally. I'm not in that situation that keeps me confused. I need clarity.
If its real, then God will make a way.
A Child of Hope
But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.
Lord, we are always wondering about things that happen.
When I sought a counselor about my life and what I thought was a possible relationship in my life, I was told to confront him with questions.
When I tried in my most inept way, I was told I was mistaken.
So was I imagining this or was I just being made fun of at the time.
Was it a joke? Did I make this up in my mind? What real proof do I have.
No words have been actually said to me to make me believe that this is truth that I should believe. All of this is intuition and inference.
So I pull back, stop doing what I had been doing, just writing my thoughts and feelings and then remove myself from a hurtful situation. Then I feel as if I am being stubborn and foolish.
If its all in my head, then I need to clear my head. I have taken things way out of context.
But yet, there seems to be something.
Something spiritual. Something to believe in. Something to say, no matter what it looks like, there is some reality to this situation. But is this really mutual or just me wanting it to be more than it is.
Nothing is said directly to you. Nothing is said to me to make me believe differently.
Nothing is done directly to you, but still, there is something there. So, I'm waiting. Waiting, Waiting, Waiting. Waiting for clarity. Waiting on the Lord. Waiting for evidence. I'm working near home. My finances are depleted. I work and still don't have enough. I'm focusing my mind on something else. Hope. Hope for my future. Hope to meet my needs and my bills. I rely on God, I keep my mind focused on God being with me and traveling this new journey together. If its really real, then God will find a way to make it happen. I will just keep trying to make my bills and focus on the present reality. I'm working weekends and evenings for the holidays. I'm going to church with my mom locally. I'm not in that situation that keeps me confused. I need clarity.
If its real, then God will make a way.
Wednesday, November 8, 2017
Blessings
everything doesn’t have to be a challenge
Life gives you a chance to make some choices, sometimes it doesn’t
Choice is important, do I have a say so in anything or do I follow blindly
It’s still a choice, do something or don’t do something, still a choic
Lord God Almighty, I choose to put my faith in you.
I can only thank God for my blessings. I thank him now so when they come
I will be ready. Thank You God for my blessings.
Life gives you a chance to make some choices, sometimes it doesn’t
Choice is important, do I have a say so in anything or do I follow blindly
It’s still a choice, do something or don’t do something, still a choic
Lord God Almighty, I choose to put my faith in you.
I can only thank God for my blessings. I thank him now so when they come
I will be ready. Thank You God for my blessings.
Saturday, November 4, 2017
Wait and Trust
Exodus 33:12-23
When you don’t know what to do, wait while I (God) open the way before you. Trust that I know what I’m doing, and be ready to follow my lead. I will give strength to you, and I will bless you with Peace.
I will trust you. I will walk with you. I am constantly reminding myself that I must trust you especially when the thought of coping with another setback alone is too much to bear. You designed us for deep dependence on our Shepherd, our King, our Comforter. Challenging times wake us up to our need to take every step of our lives together.
Moses and the Glory of the Lord
12 Moses said to the Lord, “You have been telling me, ‘Lead these people,’ but you have not let me know whom you will send with me. You have said, ‘I know you by name and you have found favor with me.’ 13 If you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you. Remember that this nation is your people.”
14 The Lord replied, “My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”
15 Then Moses said to him, “If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here. 16 How will anyone know that you are pleased with me and with your people unless you go with us? What else will distinguish me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?”
17 And the Lord said to Moses, “I will do the very thing you have asked, because I am pleased with you and I know you by name.”
18 Then Moses said, “Now show me your glory.”
19 And the Lord said, “I will cause all my goodness to pass in front of you, and I will proclaim my name, the Lord, in your presence. I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion. 20 But,” he said, “you cannot see my face, for no one may see me and live.”
21 Then the Lord said, “There is a place near me where you may stand on a rock. 22 When my glory passes by, I will put you in a cleft in the rock and cover you with my hand until I have passed by. 23 Then I will remove my hand and you will see my back; but my face must not be seen.”
I will trust you. I will walk with you. I am constantly reminding myself that I must trust you especially when the thought of coping with another setback alone is too much to bear. You designed us for deep dependence on our Shepherd, our King, our Comforter. Challenging times wake us up to our need to take every step of our lives together.
Wednesday, November 1, 2017
Open my eyes, ears and heart
Matthew 13:1-23New International Version (NIV)
The Parable of the Sower
13 That same day Jesus went out of the house and sat by the lake. 2 Such large crowds gathered around him that he got into a boat and sat in it, while all the people stood on the shore. 3 Then he told them many things in parables, saying: “A farmer went out to sow his seed. 4 As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. 5 Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. 6 But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. 7 Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants. 8 Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred,sixty or thirty times what was sown. 9 Whoever has ears, let them hear.”
10 The disciples came to him and asked, “Why do you speak to the people in parables?”
11 He replied, “Because the knowledge of the secrets of the kingdom of heaven has been given to you, but not to them. 12 Whoever has will be given more, and they will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what they have will be taken from them. 13 This is why I speak to them in parables:
“Though seeing, they do not see;
though hearing, they do not hear or understand.
though hearing, they do not hear or understand.
14 In them is fulfilled the prophecy of Isaiah:
“‘You will be ever hearing but never understanding;
you will be ever seeing but never perceiving.
15 For this people’s heart has become calloused;
they hardly hear with their ears,
and they have closed their eyes.
Otherwise they might see with their eyes,
hear with their ears,
understand with their hearts
and turn, and I would heal them.’[a]
you will be ever seeing but never perceiving.
15 For this people’s heart has become calloused;
they hardly hear with their ears,
and they have closed their eyes.
Otherwise they might see with their eyes,
hear with their ears,
understand with their hearts
and turn, and I would heal them.’[a]
16 But blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear. 17 For truly I tell you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see but did not see it, and to hear what you hear but did not hear it.
18 “Listen then to what the parable of the sower means: 19 When anyone hears the message about the kingdom and does not understand it, the evil one comes and snatches away what was sown in their heart. This is the seed sown along the path. 20 The seed falling on rocky ground refers to someone who hears the word and at once receives it with joy. 21 But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away. 22 The seed falling among the thorns refers to someone who hears the word, but the worries of this life and the deceitfulness of wealth choke the word, making it unfruitful. 23 But the seed falling on good soil refers to someone who hears the word and understands it. This is the one who produces a crop, yielding a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown.”
I Need Your Healing
Lord, I need you to show me how to make it right, with them and with you. I don’t know where to begin, what to say, how to salvage this situation. But because You do, I’m looking to You Lord.
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