I Need You

Thank you Lord for a chance to worship you today and to be with the man I love. I love you Lord and will keep on loving you. My love for myself is important too. For so long I denied myself any rights to happiness and love. It was service and duty. But Lord you placed real love in my life and I didn't know what to do. Someone so special to love me? But Lord, you reminded me that I am special too. I'm a good person, in love. I deserve a chance at happiness. I love you and I don't like being vernuable but vernuable is trusting someone else. Learning how to trust another person with your heart is scary. But I am learning how to be a risk taker with my emotions. Take a chance at love.

Michael, I love you, will you become, my husband? Will you marry me? I will ask every day. God will let me know when the words will come out of my mouth. I love you.

Affirming God in My Life

2 Corinthians 1:19-22New International Version (NIV)

19 For the Son of God, Jesus Christ, who was preached among you by us—by me and Silas[a] and Timothy—was not “Yes” and “No,” but in him it has always been “Yes.” 20 For no matter how many promisesGod has made, they are “Yes” in Christ. And so through him the “Amen” is spoken by us to the glory of God. 21 Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, 22 set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.

This is the day that the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it. Return to him and he will set you free. I give God all the glory. Thank you for today Lord. Blessed be your holy, holy name. On your words will I trust. I'm ready for an awesome day. A very awesome sermon by a very wonderful man. Thank you Lord for today. I love you and praise you. You are an awesome God. Thank you for loving me so much that when I was acting lost and alone, you were with me. You never left me. I trust you God to be with me always. I trust you. Stay strong in Your faith and trust God to say yes. 

Saturday

1 Kings 6-7
Blessed be your holy name Father God. As I am reflecting on my morning reading, Solomon built the Lords's temple. The layout, the magnificence, the temple is to honor God. Honor God, here on earth. It reminds me of my daughter and her husband and grandson just buying a new house in Seattle. They are beginning a long journey of decorating and planning for themselves. A new beginning for them. Lord I pray that you will show them favor and bless their home.

I think about my life and how I am trying to make myself better. I have been down for so long. But God has shown me there is light at the end of the tunnel. When everything seemed bleak and cold, now I see hope and a future. My world is changing for the better because my attitude is changing.

Being stuck is no fun. While others can see you stuck and talk their talk, no one can make you do anything. You have to make the decision to do it and then actually do it. What I know about myself is that I am not happy with my current situation. My relationship with you is so broken, but it has hope. Sometimes I didn't know what to think or do. Leave it alone and it would fix it self. Keep trying to move forward, never give up. Or finally, just walk away and begin a new chapter in my life. But now I know I have to do something. I'm not helpless. I make a move and then the ball is in your court. I've at least done something.

Tomorrow I will be a reader and I will be there on time of course. No need for more drama. I'm excited about tomorrow. I'm excited about my future. Whatever God wants me to do, I'm excited to do it.

Today I have a dentist appointment and a therapy appointment, then I'm going to Lifetime with my mother so she can get out of the house. God is good and his mercy endures forever. When I come back I will start on my applications for the suburbs, again. I may have been down, but I'm not out yet. The Lord is with me and I trust him to guide me to where he wants me to be. Blessed be the name of the Lord.

I give you all my love and pray that you have a welcoming day today. I pray that you let God's light shine on you and greet you with love and favor. My thoughts and prayers are with you today.

A Better Promise

Hebrews 8

Hebrews 8New International Version (NIV)

The High Priest of a New Covenant

8 Now the main point of what we are saying is this: We do have such a high priest, who sat down at the right hand of the throne of the Majesty in heaven, 2 and who serves in the sanctuary, the true tabernacle set up by the Lord, not by a mere human being.

3 Every high priest is appointed to offer both gifts and sacrifices, and so it was necessary for this one also to have something to offer. 4 If he were on earth, he would not be a priest, for there are already priests who offer the gifts prescribed by the law. 5 They serve at a sanctuary that is a copy and shadow of what is in heaven. This is why Moses was warned when he was about to build the tabernacle: “See to it that you make everything according to the pattern shown you on the mountain.”[a] 6 But in fact the ministry Jesus has received is as superior to theirs as the covenant of which he is mediator is superior to the old one, since the new covenant is established on better promises.

7 For if there had been nothing wrong with that first covenant, no place would have been sought for another. 8 But God found fault with the people and said[b]:

“The days are coming, declares the Lord,
    when I will make a new covenant
with the people of Israel
    and with the people of Judah.
9 It will not be like the covenant
    I made with their ancestors
when I took them by the hand
    to lead them out of Egypt,
because they did not remain faithful to my covenant,
    and I turned away from them,
declares the Lord.
10 This is the covenant I will establish with the people of Israel
    after that time, declares the Lord.
I will put my laws in their minds
    and write them on their hearts.
I will be their God,
    and they will be my people.
11 No longer will they teach their neighbor,
    or say to one another, ‘Know the Lord,’
because they will all know me,
    from the least of them to the greatest.
12 For I will forgive their wickedness
    and will remember their sins no more.”[c]

¹³ By calling this covenant “new,” he has made the first one obsolete; and what is obsolete and outdated will soon disappear.

Thank you for your blessings. Forgive me for my sins. Keep me close and never let me go. 

Thank You for today Lord. I love you.

Spiritual Warfare

2 Corinthians 10:1-6
By the humility and gentleness of Christ, I appeal to you—I, Paul, who am “timid” when face to face with you, but “bold” toward you when away! I beg you that when I come I may not have to be as bold as I expect to be toward some people who think that we live by the standards of this world. For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete.


Blessed is the name of the Lord and thank You for today. I am blessed. What ever evil comes against me today I will try to remember to let God handle it. Today should be a good day, professional development, no school, no kids, no administrator. Thank you God.
Have a wonderfully blessed day today. I love you, believe that. Hugs and kisses to you.

Do you love me?

John 21:15-25

Thank you God for today. Glory to your name. I love you, I'm not forcing myself to do something that I don't want to do. I have always been concerned about you and your legacy. I am with you til the end.

The Need to Give

2 Corinthians 8:1-9:15

Blessed is the name of the Lord. Giving from the heart to our one true God. The Lord is able. I love you and pray that today is a blessing for you.

Date Night

Hello My Love,

Remember date night? Well my therapist wants me to imagine my ideal date nit. How it will occur and what I will do on it. I haven't been on a real date in so long I don't know what I would do. He asked me if I thought about dating when I was in Washington and I didn't. I enjoyed spending time with my grandson, daughter and son-in-law. I really enjoyed making Easter eggs, going to he park, going out to dinner, shopping at Nordstrom Rack. I enjoyed my time away. 

I told him you were my hearts desire and I think he thinks I'm just making it up and fantazing about something that is not going to happen. He just doesn't know that I am on a mission and you are my goal. I love you and if you will still have me then there is going to be some togetherness for us. God loves me and I know he loves you we will make this work. Praise the Lord.

I talked to my union rep today and Zaheeda found out how I can talk to a union lawyer to help me with this residency thing that they want to try to get rid of me on. I will still look for work but I will still fight too. 

I love you and pray that you have love for me still.

The sure and certain promise

jeremiah 33
I love you an I have to get out of here. Traffic is horrible. Have a very blessed day.

God Responds to Prayer

Acts 12

Thank you God for your love and mercy. Thank you for today. I send my prayers up to you. My impossible prayer that I know you can hear. I know that all things are possible with God. Earnest prayers are heard by God. Lord help me to pray earnestly and believe with faith that you will help me. I am your servant and I choose to serve you.
I pray that My Love has a very good day and that your spirit is renewed. We are destined for God's Greatness. Glory be to God.
Give God some Praise and Honor.

A Genuine Turning to God

Jonah 2-3
Thank You Lord for today. In my distress I call to you. I was so ready to leave a place that I didn't like that I was not even going to fight back. I was gut kicked and I just crawled around. Get back up. Remember that God hears your prayers. God can show compassion. I had a residency waiver to work for CPS, while teaching science, she removes me from science, I didn't ask to leave and then all the residency questions. Now they claim to have no money, but supposedly they have sent an investigator to know I don't sleep at my cousins, I have a toll record from my ipass that tells them I leave from a certain place each morning. I don't use the toll in the evening. When did I become so important for them to spend so much time and effort to get me out. See Lord, that's when I decided, fine, I'll go, but now even though I am leaving CPS, I want to leave on my terms. Fight it for the next person. Do what God wants me to do nod get out of this dark place. Do God's will. You are God's will in my life. I love you and pray that you have a blessed day today.

Happy Resurrection Sunday

Blessed be the Lord. Fight for what is right. I have to fight. I can't just give up. I am so excited about fighting for my rights. We have very little time right now. I went on vacation to visit my grandson and come back with a clearer mind. I look forward to a new I don't know what to say anymore. Writers block. Do I say to much or to little? See I am depressed and I'm trying to get out of it, but Jesus is my refuge. I know if it's going to happen, then Jesus will do it. I just need to keep starting. Keep trying and never give up. Maybe you might agree with me.

He's Calling Me, What am I Going to Do about it?

Mark 14:1-9


My Alabaster Jar is full, I need to pour it out to the Lord. ThankYou Lord.

Grace Under Pressure

John 19:9-16