Good Afternoon My Love

Thank God for Blessings. I always feel special when I get one. It was a blessing to see you after 8 weeks of not seeing you. It was good to see you and good to be seen. Your armorbearers make me feel like they are protecting you from me, as if I am a threat. I try to ignore them and keep my focus on you. As the bible says, "I know the plans I have for you, not to hurt or harm" that's my version of the scripture. I keep pressing forward. I have four chapters to read each week until July 28th and finals and quizzes and papers. I will be busy. I'm seriously thinking of opening a franchise, Mathnasium because I believe I will be involved in something that will give me greater self esteem. My own business. I never really wanted my own business before, but now, I'm interested. Macy's called me and asked if I would consider returning to jewelry sales for flex hours. I said yes. I'm off for the summer, but its not like when I was employed full-time and being paid full pay. I will work twenty hours a month. That works for me and I still get the discount. Yeah!! So, I am not curled up in a ball wasting away, I have plans. Now is God onboard with those plans, that's where prayer comes in. I pray for God's guidance. Should I open up a business? Are we going to find that perfect time when everything falls into place and we are together, or will it continue to be a bunch of misses? I pray to God to guide me in everything now. Its easy to become depressed in this world. The leader of my country and half the country hates me and daily, they put measures in to play to destroy me and my kind. I'm double special because I'm also a woman. When I think of couples, and I have very little experience since the last thirty years, I have not been a couple. I think that together we make a commitment to keep each other in that bubble. We are together, supporting, encouraging and loving each other. We seem to live such distant lives. Only when I come to you and once there, try to understand what's going on. I come to you. I make the effort to drive 50 miles round trip to see you. I make the effort. I move forward with that action alone. What about you?
Have a blessed day and be a blessing to someone.