Good Morning My Love

Proverbs 4:20-27 New International Version (NIV)

20 My son, pay attention to what I say;
    turn your ear to my words.
21 Do not let them out of your sight,
    keep them within your heart;
22 for they are life to those who find them
    and health to one’s whole body.
23 Above all else, guard your heart,
    for everything you do flows from it.
24 Keep your mouth free of perversity;
    keep corrupt talk far from your lips.
25 Let your eyes look straight ahead;
    fix your gaze directly before you.
26 Give careful thought to the[a] paths for your feet
    and be steadfast in all your ways.
27 Do not turn to the right or the left;
    keep your foot from evil.

Thank God for mercy. I am on spring break and I truly need to repair my soul. Guard my heart. Keep my mouth from shouting at students, and remember, they have problems and so do I. Repair me, renew me, help me to be ready for next week with a refreshed spirit and heart. I’m at the point where I don’t want to see children,especially middle schoolers. Why did I chose a profession that I am not enjoying. 

My principal keeps trying to stop me from quitting by telling me I’m a great teacher with lots of content knowledge and the students are really learning. I’m not buying into that. Children are rude, disrespectful, call you all kinds of names, treat you less than human. I suppose I keep picking the wrong profession. Working with middle schoolers can be rewarding when they want to be there and they want to learn. When they are forced, obligated, kicked out of their home school for a variety of reasons, then you have a challenge. I knew it would be difficult, but DAMN. 

OK enough of me clearing my mind. I want to control my temper with these students, no matter what they do or say to me. This is like baby jail for them before they go to the real juvenile residential areas. Keep praying, remember God is in the midst of the situation and don’t get so emotional. They always say, don’t take it personal. Some days are just fine, but some days the devil himself has taken hold of each and every one of them and their mission is to destroy me with constant little missiles and torpedoes. 

Enough reflection. I know how I am not going to return to work. I am living my best life now. God gave me another year on this earth, my birthday was a day of celebration, I am loved and needed by many and it can only get better. I choose my reaction and I will choose calm, no matter what. Once they get you upset, they win. I will keep reinforcing my heart and soul with God’s words and advice. Stay Strong. Stay Calm.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone, My Love, My Love, My Love.